- Location:United States, Oregon, Portland
- Mood:
thankful - Music:Caleb and Sol:)
"What a beautiful night. It's so clear and peaceful. I love listening to the sounds of your creation. it reminds me of how I got here. How I got to this place. To this 'Corban.' Looking at my almost two weeks here, I love all that you have done for me. The experiences. But especially the people. I'm starting to realize your plan for me here. With the death of Ronni being so new to me...so unfamiliar, I have a hard time comprehending how such a gracious and loving God could take a girl's life at only nine years old. She was only nine! It's so hard to fathom. She impacted my life more than she could have ever known. I barely knew her! But I Knew her story. I saw the impact she had on the community. She brought us together. We all fought for Ronni. She had the heart of an angel. It's incomprehensible to me. Why this little girl? Why now? These are questions that only you have the answers to, Lord. Questions that will become clear to me one day I'm sure. But for now, all I can do is wonder. I can only wonder about the lives of Ronni, of Marcus, and of Brian. I can only wonder about the millions of other children - in particular - who are taken by this disease. I want to work with these kids. I want to get to know them. I want to give them the strength to help them know that you are the one and only God - creator of the earth and beyond - and your desire is to know them. For them to know you. They need to know that although they are going through a horrible time, there IS a God who loves them - a God who cares - and a God who is everlasting. This is my desire, Lord."
I had completely forgotten about this entry until last night. But when I read it, I remembered that what I go through here is nothing when I look at what God has done. When I suffer, I compare it to the cross and I feel pitiful compared to what He did for us.
"Blessed be Your name, when the sun's shining down on me, when the world's 'all as it should be' blessed be Your name. blessed be Your name, on the road marked with suffering, though there's pain in the offering, blessed be Your name...You give and take away, you give and take away, you give and take away, but my heart will gladly say, blessed be Your name." Be this your prayer until we meet again:)
- Music:Addison Road - Hope Now
It's amazing how life just happens so fast. I mean, it's almost November already! I still feel like I just moved in the dorms. But I outlined my next month, and, it's definitely going to be a crazy one. Wow! This is kind of my "off" weekend, and it's still pretty busy. Next weekend, I have a retreat with my college group, the next weekend, I get my braces off (FINALLY), and the next weekend, I have a leader's retreat. Oh yeah. Then it's Thanksgiving. Holy hoo-haw, it's going to be intense!
Enough nonsense. Lately, God's really been teaching me a lot about patience. Patience in trusting that God's timing is perfect for everything: in finding me a husband, in bringing me to school, in failing/passing tests, etc. Patience with people. Patience with myself. He's really put on my heart that I need to have more patience, clearly. I think that the hardest part of this whole patience thing is waiting to find a husband. If I were to be honest with you, I would gladly get married right now. I would learn to love whoever my husband was, because that's the way that God designed it (the loving part). Or, if the right person asked me, I would skip the whole dating thing and just get hitched. But, since that hasn't happened yet, God obviously doesn't want that. And it's hard waiting. In fact, waiting just sucks. I always have to stop when I get impatient and remind myself, "Be still, and know that I am God," (Psalm 46:10), and probably more importantly, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you,'" (Jeremiah 29:11). These verses are just so comforting to the impatient and restless times in my life.
Lately, however, my roommate and I have chosen a verse for our room (well, I chose it, but I think she agrees). It's 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, and it says, "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." WOW! God is good. He tells us to give thanks in everything? How are we to give thanks when we feel like everything is falling apart? When stress of school and family is seemingly overwhelming? by remembering that God knows the plans. In Job, it says that God is our strength in weakness. My friend Esther reminded me of this today before our Chemistry test. It was what I needed. At that point, I was just so (I'm going to use the cliche) sick and tired of being sick and tired, that I seriously thought about not taking the test until later. But those words were so encouraging for me. I hope they encourage you, because, it is definitely time for bed now:) Until we meet again.
- Location:United States, Oregon, Salem
- Mood: peaceful
- Music:O Praise Him! - David Crowder Band
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